I am tired ... why can't I find and download items I know exist in repository ?

i am looking for x11vnc and i've been looking for it in the entire site but it's hiding somwhere I can't tell where .

all of the problems I have are mainly because I can't install applications as i could before . FAPMAN and HAM are not working when I try to install some applications , when it happens I search the entire site to find the thing I want , download it , connect my phone to the PC and copy the file , next open the file ( .deb ) and find out some goddamn dependency is myssing !?!

am I the only one with this problem ?
or , is there an easy way to fix this problems that I have ?
thanks!